You know what I hate? When people just assume since you call them your "friends" that they know how your life has gone when in actuality you've only told them the tip of the iceberg.

When they make accusations that you don't know what they're going through with bullies... As the anger washed through me after HE made that wrongly-thought out sentence, I was frightened of myself because I could feel the control on my anger loosening but I could think perfectly straight.

I felt my throat choak and my eyes start hurting like I was about to cry. That's why I haven't spoke to him in two days.

Pissed doesn't describe my anger. No, the term that fits may be boiling range. I cannot STAND him now. Not when he spoke to me like that.

He needs to learn how to deal with bullies. For kami's sake, I'M FOURTEEN and He is older by two years! I think that has warranted him to learn how to deal with his damn problems like I did-- in fact, he should have learned long ago what I have on my own.

He's disrupting my Outdoor Recreation class, and I WILL NOT STAND FOR IT. not when Dillon's my friend whom is caught in the crossfire. Not as long as I need the credit. Not as long as I love that class.

I can't even say Steven is my friend anymore.

What a dismal bitch I've become. I was willing to tolerate the incessant chatter, hugs, and compliments (which make me very uncomfortable since I do not think about my appearance like other girls do) for a long time, but what he said made me snap.

"You don't understand what it's like..." that's what he'd said.

Yes I do. And so do many others, but his self-absorbed view made him think he was the only damn one being tortured.

I was going to scream all I'd been through at him so he would get it in his head that I've had it JUST AS BAD. Maybe even worse, but I hate to compare miseries.

(tries to stop trembling) I can't deal with this. Not when my life was finally stable. Not when I was actually okay with school. Not when I was finally feeling like a regular teenager. I don't need my past haunting me when it does that in my rare dreams.

Not now.

Not ever again.

That's what I hate. When people assume things about your life. Well, I decided something.

I'm not going to tell him about my life.

He's made it clear he doesn't deserve it at all.